“Everybody had gotten sick of me.”
Jennifer Lawrence was responding to reports that she was in financial and personal trouble, telling Entertainment Tonight that she finally hit rock bottom, from which she’s trying to ascend again.
“When I finally hit rock bottom, I just like totally broke down,” the 29-year-old Oscar winner told ET correspondent Kevin Frazier, in an interview airing Sunday at 9 p.m. ET on ET.
“I just thought, ‘Okay, am I letting myself and other people down? Am I making people mad? Am I doing the wrong thing?’” Lawrence told ET. “And I just didn’t know what I was doing. I was so arrogant and so self-involved that it kind of went unchecked.”
Lawrence, who has made more than $50 million over the past two years, first appeared in the magazine in an August 2018 photo shoot that asked “Who’s on Her List?” The actress admitted that now, she’s motivated more by the money.
“Money doesn’t change me as a person,” Lawrence said, to which she answered “None”. “I think it was because when I wasn’t making as much, I thought like, ‘This is probably my chance to really do something that’s meaningful, that’s really important.’ So I just really changed. I went through an exercise like, ‘I’m going to start consciously spending money.’”
In the interview, Lawrence said she’s “great” now, but it hasn’t been an easy road to recovery.
“I finally got sick of myself,” she told ET. “I don’t like that feeling of being like, ‘I’m sorry, everyone, I’m a f–king zombie’ and just not really doing anything with my life. I love living.”
Lawrence was widely called out last year after it was revealed she failed to donate a sizable charitable donation she was offered by the Motion Picture and Television Fund in 2015. She has since donated to charity.
Lawrence also admitted that her recent romance with co-star Chris Martin ended because the two just weren’t right for each other.
But now, Lawrence has moved on with Cooke Maroney, a model with whom she’s been secretly dating for months.
“I did date Chris [Martin] briefly, but I’m not ready to date again right now,” Lawrence told ELLE UK earlier this month. “But I was single for a long time, too.”
Lawrence told ET that she and Maroney have a pretty casual and low-key relationship that often involves trips to the beach, riding bicycles and grocery shopping, and she said she had a lot to learn when it came to love.
“You realize that you don’t know what you’re doing. It’s lonely, and it’s f–king terrible. But at the same time, it’s fun,” Lawrence said. “You do learn that you get a lot from people, but you’re also learning what other people are good at, what they can learn from you. I’ve gotten a lot from my friends.”
As for her thoughts on the Oscars and the criticism that she turned down the opportunity to present the award to her old friend Bradley Cooper? Lawrence said she never really cared about who she’d pick.
“I don’t give a f–k about the Oscars,” Lawrence told ET. “Some actors are like, ‘I wanna present with Sandra Bullock at the Oscars!’ because they’re not as cool as me. That’s just not cool. You know, ‘I wanna present with Bjork.’ That’s fine. But that’s not cool, like, ‘I wanna be with my dad at the Oscars.’ I don’t get f–king excited for that s–t.”
Still, Lawrence said, she was shocked to see how her rivals at the time, Leonardo DiCaprio and George Clooney, had accepted the award.
“I felt like they had benefited from the Oscars because, if you go back and look at it, I really beat out the f–king kids,” Lawrence said. “The f–king kids had already gone and they were already getting paychecks. I don’t think they necessarily saw it that way. And then I kept beating ’em up. And then they had a reason to get excited for me, so they did.”